"It's calms like these that normally indcate the shizac-storm to end all is about to hit. It's for that reason that days like these are so great . . . and so absolutely terrifying."
That was from yesterday's blog.
Today, I got an email from a friend from my previous employer. Suffice it to say that I wasn't prepared for the contents. Instantly, I was in a funk, and all these self-disparaging feelings immediately boiled to the surface. I know this person didn't intend for that to happen, and certainly nothing that caused these feelings of self-doubt and confusion were brought on by anything this friend said or did. Nevertheless, the feelings were there. I felt like I wanted to crawl under a rock and burrow into the dirt just to hide from the past.
And then they were gone. In one fell swoop, the feelings were gone. I remembered something I was told way back in February from Someone infinitely more capable of knowing the true story of *every*thing.
I'll admit--it was a close call this morning. I could feel the day slipping away and I was becoming rather depressed. Then I remembered what I felt way back in February . . . and I just stopped caring. Not in a "daily affirmation" kind of way, but I am a great guy. I'm nice, I'm friendly, I'm fun, and I'm worth being friends with. If someone doesn't feel that way, I can't do anything about it. In no way am I going to let that place or person drag me down any more than I have already allowed. I'm happy where I am, and that's good enough for me.