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Thursday, June 5, 2008

The Day that Almost Got Away

"It's calms like these that normally indcate the shizac-storm to end all is about to hit. It's for that reason that days like these are so great . . . and so absolutely terrifying."

That was from yesterday's blog.

Today, I got an email from a friend from my previous employer. Suffice it to say that I wasn't prepared for the contents. Instantly, I was in a funk, and all these self-disparaging feelings immediately boiled to the surface. I know this person didn't intend for that to happen, and certainly nothing that caused these feelings of self-doubt and confusion were brought on by anything this friend said or did. Nevertheless, the feelings were there. I felt like I wanted to crawl under a rock and burrow into the dirt just to hide from the past.

And then they were gone. In one fell swoop, the feelings were gone. I remembered something I was told way back in February from Someone infinitely more capable of knowing the true story of *every*thing.

I'll admit--it was a close call this morning. I could feel the day slipping away and I was becoming rather depressed. Then I remembered what I felt way back in February . . . and I just stopped caring. Not in a "daily affirmation" kind of way, but I am a great guy. I'm nice, I'm friendly, I'm fun, and I'm worth being friends with. If someone doesn't feel that way, I can't do anything about it. In no way am I going to let that place or person drag me down any more than I have already allowed. I'm happy where I am, and that's good enough for me.


Chris said...

You ROCK!!


You will meet many people who will try to outdo you, in school, in college, at work. They’ll try to have nicer cars, bigger houses, nicer clothes, cooler gadgets. To them, life is a competition — they have to do better than their peers to be happy.

Here’s a secret: life isn’t a competition. It’s a journey. If you spend that journey always trying to impress others, to outdo others, you’re wasting your journey. Instead, learn to enjoy the journey. Make it a journey of happiness, of constant learning, of continual improvement, of love.

Don’t worry about having a nicer car or house or anything material, or even a better-paying job. None of that matters a whit, and none of it will make you happier. You’ll acquire these things and then only want more. Instead, learn to be satisfied with having enough — and then use the time you would have wasted trying to earn money to buy those things … use that time doing things you love.

Find your passion, and pursue it doggedly. Don’t settle for a job that pays the bills. Life is too short to waste on a job you hate.

Reference: Zen Habits


Leave the past behind, move forward, enjoy life, you deserve it!!

JLJ said...

Some days you are just more vulnerable to feeling like that or letting other people get you down. And then you get even more down thinking how dumb it is that you let someone else get you down... and it goes on... So I'm glad you snapped out of it.